I have been thinking a lot lately about this journey I'm on of becoming a business owner as well as defining who I am as an artist. Sometimes I get lost on my way and I forget who I really am at the root of it all: I am a follower of Christ. To me, that is the most important thing. When I get distracted, I get distraught. I become overcritical... I don't like my work. I don't like my attitude. I don't like my selfish nature. Recently I have been experiencing some ups and downs both emotionally and in my work and relationships. I believe it is all reflective of my spiritual health. That said, I love it when life whips me into shape. When things happen that force me to get my act together. It's usually during these times that I have revelations about my work as well as the motivation to take action against my negativity. Because then I have more room in my heart for joy. Today... today I have joy. Despite the circumstances and the discouragement I am experiencing.
Today... I am grateful for the ups and downs of life. That I have such a range of emotions going through my heart and mind that I am never bored. That the ups and downs continue to teach me about myself, as well as help me explore who I am as an artist. But most importantly, that the ups and downs force me to remember what is most important in my life and that is knowing who I am in God's eyes. I am beautiful, I am perfect, and I am good.
And so are you.
(me, Easter 2010, taken by my dad)
